I’m glad that people agree with my decision to get my 4-year degree rather than my 2-year. I just filled out my FAFSA online today, and applied for aid from NYSHEC too. Hopefully I’ll get some federal and state aid for my degree. As it stood before, since this is my 2nd associates, I don’t get anything, and have to take out student loans. I really don’t want any more loans, but if it has to be that way, it has to be that way.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to actually GO to work. Recently my company hired a new administrator and what happened before she came on, “never happened”. Like when I was promoted to “office supervisor” and they told me that after 3 months I would have a review and a raise, and like when I was told I could take a day off without pay because I didn’t have any more time coming to me in August. (long story for another post) Anyways, every day something changes. I mean, I understand why they are changing, but it’s just hard to keep up with the changes. I am the type of person who likes change, but sometimes there comes a point where you have to say, “can’t you just change it gradually?” There’s definitely a respect-factor going on that makes me not want to go there. There are some people who can’t talk to other people with respect. I have had to actually go for a walk because the person who was talking to me made me so angry. I’ve actually thought about leaving and not coming back. BUT then I rethunk my position, and went back. It’s really hard going to work every day when you know you’re going to be disrespected and have every mistake pointed out, never a “thanks! you did a great job the other day.” Constant belittling wears a person thin.
So I’ve been looking for other opportunities in the area. I’ve decided on a part time job, at least. I just have to get up there and apply when they start hiring. Maybe I can even make it my full time gig. Who knows?